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I have been doing some reading and listening to some YouTube videos about telling my story. I also realized this past weekend, that some think I have always been fit and healthy and I haven't been. I recently was asked where I get my motivation from. Well read on below to find out.
I know I have an About Me page here on my blog, but I feel like I haven't given you my entire story. I feel like I only gave you the story from the last 3-4 years or so. So, hold on to your boot straps, because I am about to share more about me.
As a kid growing up, I was never "skinny" or what I thought to be skinny. My sister could get away with eating whatever she wanted and it never affected her. Me on the other hand was always what I like to call "big boned." I was never skinny, but wasn't completely overweight either. I was active and playing sports, softball, soccer, riding bikes and such, but was never skinny. In fact, I remember there was a time when I was in 5th grade getting off the school bus crying from being called fat. Wow, those were hurtful words. Looking back I know that was just someone being mean, and to be called fat wasn't the easiest thing to hear, but knowing I was called that and how I felt only makes me imagine what others feel like when they are called that.
I was always to scared to wear a 2 piece bathing suit as a kid and teenager, so I was in a one-piece for so long, until my senior trip in 1999. Even then, I wasn't completely comfortable with wearing a two-piece.
As a kid, my nutrition was never awful, but we did eat at those fast food restaurants, the buffets of the 1990s and such, but my mom was and is a FANTASTIC cook.
Fast-forward to high school and things remained the same. I was in sports but never looked at myself as skinny. I remember in high school looking at the pretty/skinny girls in school thinking I was never going to be pretty. I mean how often do we think we are pretty enough or skinny enough?
Moving on to college, I would say like some that is where my nutrition really started to go downhill. Granted I lived at home and commuted to school, but still I was eating at the student union building, eating at crazy hours of the day and skipping meals. Where was my fitness level, come on did waiting tables carrying heavy trays of food or walking up 3 flights of stairs count??? Needless to say, by the time I got half way up those 3 flights of stairs to class I was winded and had to take a break.
I remember thinking to myself I would get in better shape. My freshman year of classes, a high school friend and I commuted together and we decided we were going to go to the school's gym and start working out. That lasted oh about 3 times and I never went back. I remember going to the gym and seeing all these athletes (and I mean athletes) thinking to myself, yeah right they are looking at me and laughing, wondering what the heck am I doing there.
So, I went through college just never feeling motivated or the desire to be healthy. UNTIL my senior year and I had a wedding in April of my senior year and knew I wanted to be a certain weight when I got married. So, my sister and I joined a gym right around the holidays that year and we went, we ACTUALLY stuck to it. We would get up 3 days a week and be at the gym by 5:30am to workout for an hour and then go our separate ways for the day. It helped having her there by my side holding me accountable, but nutrition wise, that never changed. I was still eating the way I always had. Did I meet my goal weight, YES I did the week before my wedding, and I was so proud of myself. But, since I didn't have a goal in mind anymore, I stopped going to the gym.
After our wedding we moved to Portland, ME and where we were living there was a gym right around the corner, we joined there and that lasted for about 4-6 months, but again, I fell off the wagon and didn't go back. We bought a house in May of 2004 and the winter of 2006-2007 I made a New Year's Resolution to get back to the gym. We joined, but I can guess on 2 hands how many times I actually went. I was working full time and didn't know how to make it a part of my daily routine.
In 2007, we moved again and this time where we moved, there was a gym right on the base. I remember leaving Maine, saying I will be in the best shape of my life because I have a gym and it is FREE access. Well, yep, again, that didn't work. I can count on one hand how many times I went there. But, I would take nightly walks with our dog. I remember telling myself well hey at least you are walking and that is worth something. Which it was, don't get me wrong, but knowing now what I know, it was better than nothing but still I needed to do more.
Holy cow, do you see a pattern here, every time I did something I would go less and less and then never go back.
I got pregnant with our first child in February 2008 and remember thinking throughout the early stages of my pregnancy, WOW I haven't gained that much weight, I am doing great. Apparently all the extra pounds I am carrying are sufficient for the growing baby. Little did I realize that even though I wasn't gaining much weight in the beginning it was all going to come on and quickly. I was put on bed rest for my blood pressure being too high and HATED every minute of it, but knew that was safest for the baby. I also remember going to the hospital and weighing 245 pounds. When my pregnancy started I was around 205-210 pounds. I look back at those pictures and realize why I never wanted pictures taken of me past my shower which was in August and being as huge as a house. After having Matthew, I remember thinking to myself, I never want to be there again.
So, what did I do, we moved in May of 2009 and went back to walking every day for about 45 minutes. But, in the January of 2010, I decided I was going to try and workout at home. I went out and bought a Jillian Micheals DVD - and I would get up early and do the workouts. But, again it lasted maybe 2-3 weeks. I remember thinking holy cow I can't walk, but did I see any changes - NOPE. Needless to say I stopped working out at home and struggled with my weight, blood pressure and the feeling of being tired and sluggish once again, which lasted until we moved in May 2011. I even had to monitor my blood pressure for a few weeks at home because my doctor at the time wanted to put me on blood pressure medication - I was 28 years old and was determined NOT to go on medication for my blood pressure as I knew once I started it, I would have a difficult time not taking it in the future.
So, we moved once again in May 2011 and I continued on my typical up and down roller coaster above. I even tried walking a couple times a week but we weren't living in an area conducive to walking. So, I didn't even do that. In November/December of 2012, my husband and I discussed having a baby and he was worried about me having the same issues I had with my first pregnancy so we made a deal to meet with my doctor and get their opinion. And if you have read my
ABOUT ME
page, the rest is history. The doctor is who encouraged me to get in shape and start working out. I figured I would exercise 3 days a week and she is the one who told me workout 5 days a week at least. Shortly after starting at the gym, I had a free evaluation by one of the trainers and part of that evaluation included getting on a body mass scale. I remember leaving the gym with a slip of paper and seeing the "Ideal Weight" on that paper and thinking - ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? There is no possible way I will ever see that weight. I wasn't even that weight when I got married. I have kept that paper for nearly 3 years and I would look at it occasionally thinking "never in a million years."
So, what does all this come down to?? Well, since I started my journey of more focused on working out, Shakeology and Clean Eating, I have managed to lose about 60-70 pounds from where I was in 2008 (about 40 pounds from 2012 to date). In addition, I no longer have issues with my blood pressure and crazy as it sounds I weigh less than what I weighed when we got married. You know that "ideal weight" I mentioned above, I have actually met and maintained even a few pounds below that for the last 4 months. As for how my cholesterol has been affected and other blood levels, I am due to have blood work done and will be excited to see what changes have come from last winter to this winter, I can't wait.
Now, don't get me wrong this is a struggle each and every day of the week, but I know this is a lifestyle change NOT a fad diet or a quick fix. This is one day at a time for me and every day I face temptations that I face head on. Each day I wake up and put one foot in front of another and I can honestly say, the Facebook Challenge Groups that I joined this past summer helped get me moving. But, now I help run them and each and everyone of my fellow challengers in the group keep me motivated. I know they are working just as hard as I do each day and they help keep me motivated and accountable. Not to mention my son helps me stay accountable when he asks "mommy did you get your workout in this morning?" I am loving how I feel and have never felt better in my life.
In fact, I am FINALLY happy with where I am with my body and have come to realize that while I may never be "perfect" with the "awesome 6-pack" some have, I am FIT, HEALTHY, and likely in the best shape I have ever been. I LOVE setting the example for my kids and family and knowing that there are people I have played a part in inspiring others. I remember thinking in August, if I could just inspire one person, then that is what I want to do. Now, I want to help pay forward everything I have learned and help you reach your goals!
I hope you have been able to understand a little more about me and where I have come from and how I have gotten here! If you are interested in learning more about how I can help you, please contact me as I would LOVE to help you out!
~Sarah Strubhar
Independent Team Beachbody Emerald Coach